A Long One :)

Part One - Why do we make deals with the devil?

Why do I insist on trying to make deals with myself all the time?!!! You can get off the treadmill now if you don't eat for the rest of the day. It's okay to eat this, you'll burn it off later. Don't worry about eating this, you can starve tomorrow. NO! It is not okay. I never bur enough so I shouldn't get off the treadmill, I won't burn it later so I shouldn't eat it, you'll fail again tomorrow so don't let yourself think it's okay to fail today. I am obsessed with making deals with myself, with CHEATING! It truly is as easy as just saying 'no'. Don't let yourself do it, and definitely don't let yourself convince yourself that it is okay.

Part Two - Perfectly Normal

I am perfectly normal. My BMI is 21.86, right smack bang in the centre of the healthy weight range. I am perfectly and disgustingly normal and I hate it. I have lost 11.8kgs, 26lbs, 15% of my body weight and not one person has noticed or commented. You know why? Because it still only makes me normal. I don't want to be normal. I want to be thin, skinny would be great but thin is what I am aiming for. 60kgs I believe would make me thin. 19.8BMI. 55kgs would be skinny. 18.1BMI. I want to be thin/skinny and enjoy life, not too sick to make the most of it.

So this weeks stats are:

Week 13 Friday Weight: 66.2kgs
Week 13 Friday Loss: 1kgs

Total Weight Loss: 11.8kgs
BMI: 21.9

So in conclusion; watch me drain every last drop of life out of this world, I will make the most of it, just as I will drain every last drop of fat from my ass:) It WILL happen. I might not be tomorrow but tomorrow will get me closer, and one day, hopefully not too far away, I will be something more (less) than perfectly normal:) willbethin xoxo